My wilderness started as doubts and fear crept into my spiritual life. Add in seven months of fertility meds with handfulls of hair coming out everyday, nightmares and hotflashes every night, cramping and swelling, and an optical migraine where the walls started cracking and sliding down, and I can honestly say I've been in the pit (as Beth Moore would say) for the last 2 years.
But as Ecclesiastes 3:4 says, "There is a time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance." And I'm ready to start dancing again. :) We have officially started the process of adopting a precious little baby from China. Just to show you how God works in His omniscience...I have wanted to adopt from China since I was a little girl, and I have had a heart for orphans all this time. Only now am I realizing that the twinges and yearnings I have felt all these years are actually a calling from God. So I am going to continue my devotional posts, but I will sprinkle in updates on the adoption from time to time. Right now, we are buried in paper work with a goal to complete the home study by June. I'll keep you posted....
One of my favorite songwriters is Laura Story. Just shortly after she and her husband were married early in their twenties, they found out he had brain cancer. Her songs epitomize the greatness of an all-powerful God in the face of human frailties. So today I leave you with her latest song Blessings.
